Hi! I'm Lindsay. I'm not sure about you, but I generally like to see the person who is talking to me or writing to me. So, this is a picture of me. I hold a lot of positions in life (like wife, mother, daughter, friend), but at the core of it all, I'm just me. Thanks for stopping by! I hope you stay. Enjoy!
I'm kind of studying something, and I'm really curious about a certain subject, but I need some help. :) If you wouldn't mind, I'd like you to leave a comment to this post with some information. There is one specific piece of information I don't want you to include, though. Your Name. Leave an anonymous comment.
This is what I'm wondering about:
Who do you think you are? At your best? At your worst? When you look in the mirror, what do you see? When you look in your heart, what do you find? What are your dreams and your fears? According to you, who are you?
Be brutally honest with me and with yourself. And leave the spiritual mumbo-jumbo out, if you please. I promise there is a point to this. Like I said, keep it anonymous. This remains your secret. I have no way of knowing who leaves what comment, as long as you don't fill in your information. I'm just trying to get a feel for what the average person believes about him or herself.
Thank you for your help!!
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Who am I?
At my best I am a closer picture of who God wants me to be. I am compassionate, kind, understaning, thoughtful, helpful. I strive to be closer to God. I read the Word, study, talk to people about God and religion. I am in better communication with God and words come easier to me. It seems like my gifts are amplified and my weaknesses are minimized.
At my worst... I am selfish. I have very selfish motives for my actions. I become lazy, dont try very hard, am grouchy, angry, bitter. Let my past hold me down. Let my insecurities rule my mind. I do not treat my family and friends with the love and respect they deserve. I beat myself up over it all knowing I need to change but at the same time, I feel too powerless to change. I am poweless. No motivation outside of just getting through the day. I hate it. I was like this for a very long time before I sought the help I needed. I was aweful to my husband (fiance at the time), resentful of friends who wanted to help. I was not even a shadow of who I am today. My life is so radically different from that time.
When I look into a mirror, I see me... full of flaws but full of potential. Looking into the mirror is a point of decision for me. What will today be like? Will I show myself a smile and decide that it will be a good day or will I be too self involved and start my day out negatively.
My heart is scarred. Badly. Full of sadness for my lost family. Full of hurt from my childhood. Full of fear that people will turn into what I have grown up around. But scarred means its healing. Its not full of gaping wounds anymore. I can feel the sadness and pain from the tender scar tissue but I have experienced enough in my new life to see that God is healing me. Allowing me to trust more. Allowing me to let go of my past slowly. But I also have a lot of compassion and understanding that comes from having such a scarred past. Im seeing my past more and more as a witnessing tool everyday. Something a different crowd can relate to. Something the hurt can relate to.
My dreams and fears... I have a dream to have an impact on people. I am not really sure how. Some days I want to do nonprofit work and other days I want to be a nurse. Im not really sure where I am supposed to be in the future. Right now, I am supposed to be with my kid(s) though so I am enjoying that and trying to be the best parent I can be. It is always a dream of mine to be a great wife to my awesome husband. I guess I am in the stage of trying to let God shape the dreams of myself and my family. Right now is a time of a lot of sacrafice as we are heading in a direction of one big dream for our family. My fears mainly consist of losing my family. Being without them in this life. Or people I trust turning into people I once trusted. I also fear getting lost in myself again. becoming depressed and being useless to my family.
Who do you think you are?
I think I am continually becoming the person I ultimately want to be. I take bits and pieces of the personalities of those I care about and admire and try to compile them to make up the person I am.
At my best, I'm caring, funny, smart, enthusiastic, energetic and inspiring.
At my worst, I am bitter, foolish and unkind.
When I look in the mirror, I see a different person every day. Some days I think I look beautiful. I can smile at myself and be proud. Some days, I am disgusted with myself because I think I look physically or emotionally ugly.
When I look into my heart, I find a person that wants to belong somewhere. I see someone that wants to do good for the people she loves and for the community but doesn't always know how. I see someone that has a lot of love to give but has trouble finding the people she wants to give that love to.
My dream is to live a life of meaning. My fear is that I won't.
Who am I? I am simply an attempt to exemplify the traits that I most admire in others. Sometimes I fail; sometimes I succeed.
Who are you?
Who am I? A mother, wife,
Who am I? A mother, wife, daughter, friend...but more and more an ever-growing Christian, child of God, is topping that list.
At my best? I'm witty and crack others up on a daily basis, yet sensitive and very conscientious of others' feelings and an intent listener. I truly care about people and am inquisitive to learn more about them. I am reliable--someone whom others can count on. I am constantly looking to build up my relationship with God, always seeking more of Him. I am a present and loving mother and am always looking for ways to enrich my child's life.
More often than I care to admit, I evidence behaviors of being at my worst. I throw humor in at inappropriate times, often sticking my foot in my mouth. It's hard for me to get deep with people and I tend to be an on-the-surface conversationalist. I struggle to find the right words and convey my thoughts, especially when I'm not as connected to God. I don't have any motivation to even make a "to do" list, let alone do any dishes. I end a day with having accomplished nothing and feeling the effects of it...usually all around me, such as a messy house. I don't spend as much quality time with my child as I want to and should and I feel awful guilt about that and, in turn, the time he then spends in front of the tv or computer. I spend WAY too much wasteful time on the computer myself. I worry too much about what others' think. I talk mean to my husband and lack patience with him, my child and others. I over-indulge when it comes to food. I can be selfish and judgmental.
When I look in the mirror, I see an overweight version of myself (yet, I've been overweight as long as I can remember!). Someone who could look nice with the right hair cut, make-up and stylish clothes that actually fit. Someone who longs for a relationship with God, but doesn't feel Him. Who has a hunger for his Word, but rarely opens up a Bible and knows so little about it.
When I look into my heart, I think God has done a good job of mending it following a difficult season. It's scarred, or permanently etched, in the right places. My heart is full of an immense love for so many people, yet I don't feel I know how to express that love to them like I should.
I fear enduring another major loss in my life. I fear losing friends because they feel I have nothing of importance, or substance, to share in any situation. I fear that I'll mess up my son's life because I don't know what I'm doing!
I dream of a happy and full life. Finding my niche or passion or, at least, contentment at a future job so then I can come home and enjoy my family to the fullest without other "junk" getting in the way. I dream of raising a well-adjusted Christian child--->man. I dream of blessing others in big and small ways.
What great questions, Lindsay. You've gotten a lot of powerful responses.